I do understand about naming my sins and make it a habit. I also have a pastor and take in the Word every day. My family are also believers and I frequently try to encourage them in the faith. Just talked to my Mom about 1 Jn. 1:9 and she started quoting the verse with me. I was happy to hear it. Right now I am in a new role, being her caregiver and living with her after my father died last fall and she came back from living with my sister.
Just wondered about all the Mason stuff and about getting it out of the house. BTW, her parents were Masons yet claimed to be believers. I don't know how you can be a high degree Mason and profess Christ too, but I hope I will see them in heaven some day.
Speculative Masonry is just a mash-up of various philosophies, and sometimes religious concepts too. The term Theosophy is often used to describe it. Personally, its not a subject I recommend exploring, as it tends to cloud the mind with useless, and often corrupted data.
Becoming a believer in Christ is as simple as believing that Christ Jesus died for our sins. By His knowledge, many are justified (Isaiah 53:11). So a believer in Christ can't lose their salvation regardless of what Theosophical junk they may choose to clog their minds with. It is a work of God, not man, so a believer can't even forfeit their salvation, even if they wanted too (Eph 2:8-9 and John 6:29).
I don't believe Masonic objects (rings, pins, books, etc.) really have any influence on our lives, other than the symbolism/meanings that we choose to assign to them. Good and bad things happen to us for a whole host of reasons. Sometimes its discipline for stepping out of line, sometimes its just designed to test the knowledge that we store in our minds, sometimes the problems are just a result of poor decisions. Its up to the individual to determine for themselves what the causes might be, but its always best to keep using 1John1:9 and talking it over with God. Only He can judge our minds and hearts (Rev 2:23).
Physical objects are never the issue. Its what kind of knowledge you choose to put in your mind that can cause problems. Every decision we make (consciously or subconsciously) is directly influenced by the knowledge we store in our minds. No believer can function spiritually, or properly integrate Biblical knowledge without the consistent use of 1John1:9. I'm not telling you to live in a psychological bubble, but just be aware of what you are learning and thinking.
So continue to use 1John1:9, continue to study the Word under the Pastor that God has provided for you, continue to encourage the believers in your family to do the same, and continue to talk to God about the challenges you face, in Christ Jesus' name (John 5:16). That's really all you can do, and it's a responsibility that should not be taken lightly.